Stephen's Blogs – Stephen Hon's Blogs (韓啟年)

When a lady tell you that “You don’t have to do this anymore!” she actually sending out a loud & clear message. It might be

• I already have someone special that will give me flowers (or other presents) on my birthday so you no longer need to do this.
• I am not interested to have further relationship with you.

I “gathered those broken pieces” with heart pain each time I breath. I “gathered those broken pieces” walked slowly to the auto pay machine. I “gathered those broken pieces” to pay for the parking fee. I “gathered those broken pieces” then walked slowly to the car.

(Wa lau leh! So many “gathered those broken pieces” ?)

Ok! Ok! Let put it in this way…. I “gathered those broken pieces”

• with heart pain each time I breath.
• walked slowly to the auto pay machine.
• to pay for the parking fee.
• then walked slowly to the car.
• driving slowly out the car park.
• without realise why I finally reached Alpha Angle JUSCO
• parking my car in the car park.
• reaching MAXIS shop and finally realised that I need to pay for the broadband.
• going down the foods bazaar.
• ordering for foods – drink and paid for it.
• eating and drinking slowly.
• to reach home finally.
• to try to online.
• I logged in my blogs
• typing words by words to be place here

Without realise, tear wetting my eyes, flowing down my cheeks. Heart still pain. I want to mend those broken pieces by burying it here. It not easy but I think it is ok. Feeling a little better now when typing alphabet s by alphabets.

She have sent out earlier signals before but I just ignored it, but now it is clear when it came out straight from her mouth. Her initials signals are

• removing all my comments in her blogs (including some of her other friends)- 99% of the comments came from myself. She then set her blogs to “Under Construction“
• removing me from her Friendster’s friends and set her profile to private.
• unresponsive of my SMS & emails -

1. I let her knew my birthday (No wishes from her)
2. New Year Greeting Message (No response)
3. Chinese New Year Greeting (No response)
4. Valentine Message (No response)

• removing me & other (guys) from her facebook. What left are her mutual friends. (All ladies) She then set her profile to private.

She is the one I admired, the one I like and can be said the one that swept me off my feet. She is pretty, sexy and  my dream woman. When I first meet her, I told myself, she is the one  I want as girlfriend and if have any chance I want to marry her for the rest of your life. It a beautiful dream…. but it shattered, break like glasses fell to ground when  I finally found out her dear honey is not me… She have made up her choice not to choose you but the other man! ( She posted it on her friendster, “I’m falling in love again.. thanks honey ” ) Sob.. sob.. your tears came out from your eyes without you realise. And you wonder why it is so hard to get a woman to love you. What can you do? What else can you do? If you are sporting enough… wish her all the best and hope that her choice will be the right one and the man she have chosen will not hurt her feeling, can build the future together or might take care of her for the rest of life. All the best dear…. good luck! You move on with your single life like as usual. Before her existance, you have lived on as a single guy, many years alone, right? So does it make any different right now?

Maybe it is just a crush, smitten by her beauty or more on one way traffic love… you have the feeling for her but she don’t have in her… That why she chose someone else. This is what have written on her blogs by the title “If you really want to know me first of all, you should never try to get too personal, cos I meant it when I said, that you gotta long way to go…” Maybe this the consequence ignoring her messages? Sob… Soob

So when is the time a woman will said to you “I’m falling in love with you… Thanks honey ” where this honey is YOU?