Stephen's Blogs – Stephen Hon's Blogs (韓啟年)

4:30PM You came in the reading room 1, you looked  very innocent and just like a young pretty little girl today. ( You wear a light yellow skirt with small red flowers on it. The collar and the sleeves of your shirt is in white colour )

As usual I sat on the same old place, the moment I saw you my heartbeat increased. It’s beat more faster as you walked nearer. When you sat down I nearly stop breathing!

I have this kind of feeling because I decided earlier no matter where I see you, I will give you the note! I can’t stand on missing the opportunity anymore. Proverb said, “When opportunity came knocking on the door you must grab it or else it will pass by and never will be returned” So this is what I going to do!!

When Chong saw you on duty again, he mentioned something about you to Shee Keong. Shee Keong kept his eyes on you and he also agreed that you’re very nice, beautiful and attractive! Chong also let Shee Keong knew that you are the one I tried to befriend this few days!!

And at the same time they seem like knowing of what I thought and began to tease me. I just can’t stop cursing and I swear I won’t let them know any my secret the next time.

Well, they pretty sure that you won’t accept me as your friend because I am serious type, not friendly enough and not talkative. I knew clearly what they mean because I knew myself well.

Anyway I didn’t take them seriously, my idea is that “You should try before you said can’t!” and I replied to their teasing, sound challenging, “Well you just wait for my good news. I will let you know tomorrow.” And out they goes.  ( I turned back and noticed that you are not there anymore)

A few minutes later I saw my friends went in the room again. They wish me good luck and said that they are ready to hear from me the next day. To add more ‘taste’ to their game they even helped me to modify the message so that it sound good. What good friends I have!!

Before they left, they told me that you are just outside of the room. Just to see you I followed them out. I noticed that you are talking with a boy. While keeping my eyes on you I also purposely chit chat with my friends.

After a while I went back to the room again and continue revision. Then all a sudden somebody handed me the attendance book, I looked up and it is you! (I wonder when you came in) I took the book and at the same time I thought of giving you the note but I just don’t have the courage to do so!!

When the last person in my row have signed the attendance book and he returned it to you. You took it and walked out of the room. A moment later I followed from behind and noticed that you’re in room 2. I waited for you to come out but you kept on chit-chat with your friends (the other supervisors)

Back to room 1 and continue revision but there is ‘something’ disturbing my mind. I felt uneasy and can’t concentrate at what I read. All I see was emptiness. I guessed there is something to do with you. After second thought I quickly goes out the room again hopefully I will ‘bump’ in you but to my disappointment you still inside the room.

This time I saw you revision there. I still waiting for you to come out. 5… 10…. 15…. 20…. 25…. minutes passed by….. I loose my patience and back I went in the room 1 again. I wondering why you revision there instead of in this room. So far as I concern all your books and belonging are here in Room 1. It seem that you sensed my plan and you really made me ‘pay’ for this!

Normally you will quickly come back to your seat again once you have passed the attendance book to room 2. (This is what I noticed these few days) But this time it’s almost 6:30PM. With ‘frustration’ and stomach empty, I just left the note on your place and went out for dinner……..

Half way through the staircase, I made an ‘U-Turn’ back to the room again cos I afraid that somebody might seen it and throw it away, then the note may not reach you and I will totally missed the chance of knowing you. Beside that if the person who read it happen to be you I will also miss to see your reaction too! So I decided to stay anyway.

Well I did took back the note and add in a few words “From… The guy sitting behind” then I put it nicely back to your place again and wait patiently for the moment to come.

At last the long waited moment came! You came in the room around 6:35PM. You saw the message, took it and read it! And at the same moment my heart missed a few beats!! When you finished I can feel that you did turn back and looked at my direction (even though I didn’t look at you the time)

All of  a sudden you grabbed the note and quickly walked out of the room without turning back. Did I scared you? And I began to panic! Suddenly the fear began to ‘haunt me’ I damn scared. I thought you are going to report this to the Head Supervisor. I kept hoping and praying that you didn’t do this.

“Well, I have playing with matches and the little spark has turned into fire. And now it is really burning!! I definitely won’t be allowed to use this reading room anymore!” This is the first thing I thought.

I try to keep my head as low as possible. Without turning back, (by hearing) I knew you came in the room again but this time you are not alone! I felt that you are talking with somebody else and then left.  Whether it is real or just an imagination, I didn’t know as I dare not to turn back!!

At the same time I sensed that the other students also kept their eyes on me. Its seem like the whole room (students) are staring at me!! It feel so terrible and uncomfortable. I quickly packed my books and went out of the room…. but lady luck is with me today!

When I opened the door, to my surprise…. I really can’t believe my eyes and myself. I thought I am dreaming but of course it is not. It is is reality and it did happened right in front of my eyes!!

All I saw was you [ with a smiling face like this -> ] I Knew I own you an apology. I said sorry for what I did. You smiled again and said that you didn’t mind. “I can be your friend” was the next words I heard from  you. You introduce yourself and gave me a warm firmly hand shake. (This the moment we became a friend!)

[I'm still in state of 'confusion'. To believe or not to believe. "Is she the one who is talking with me now? Does this really happen?" I tried to find an answer for this. Well, well Stephen you are not dreaming, the most beautiful Library Supervisor is now your friend  and she right in front of you!]

Then you introduced your friend to me as Miss Oh. I told you how I feel when you grabbed the message and walked out of the room. All you do is… well, you just standing there laughing and smiling. The way you smile… oh how sweet and attractive you are!

After chit-chatting for 5 minutes, I said good-bye and I left the building as one of the most happiest person in the world that night. I’m so happy and pleased with myself because….. I came to know you at last!! It can be said that I’m one of the lucky guy too!

The next thing I did was to call Shee Keong from A Block (Administration Block) and told him of that ‘fantastic good news’. Of course he did not trust me, he thought I’m joking but as I continued with my story, he began to believe it. He congratulated me and praise me ‘cos he never expect me to success with this game. He even laughed at what I have done. Well, what a day and another experience for me.

After taking dinner I joined them for movie. During supper, Shee Keong blurted out what I did this evening. The rest of my gangs surprised to hear it too! They too didn’t expect me dare to do this! An achievement for myself yeah?