Shee Keong told me that he have seen you outside the reading room. I followed him out and saw you chit-chat with a guy and you didn’t notice me. I talked to him about today’s plan. Moment later Chong joined in. We then went back to the reading room again. (You were still outside)

A while later you came in and took the record book with you and went out again. (If I’m not mistaken you must goes to room 2.) Within 5 minutes you came in the room again and this time you saw me, you smile.

You just seat beside me. (Actually I purposely planned this out. Early in the morning I booked the place so that I will be near to you cos I did knew exactly the time and the day of your duty. Well, it worked out perfectly!) You asked me whether I signed the attendance book or not. I said yes and then  I told you that the book have been passed wrongly by the middle row students. That why it came back to your place so fast.

“No wonder there are so few students signed on it” I heard you saying this. (At that time the room almost full!) My friends then asked me out of the room to discuss about tomorrow’s plan. A few minute later I back to my seat again while they are leaving.

When I just sat down, you asked permission from me to meet the other supervisor at the end of the corner. You said that want to tell him about the attendance record. I ‘agreed’ and wonder why you should ask the permission from me where else I haven’t be your ‘special boy friend’ yet. I just can’t figure out why!

During the dinner time I try to ask you out for dinner but you gave the reason that you don’t normally eat your dinner. So….. I got to go alone. I just so You left the room at 6:45PM and goes to room 2 cos your duty is on 4:00PM – 7:00PM.

10:15AM I met you at the cafetaria in Block L. You are buying your breakfast. I move closer to you and said “Hello!” You gave me the same sweet smile as I saw yesterday night.

Then I saw you moved over a table and sat down. Later when my sandwich is ready I came to your place and asked permission to join in. “May I Join you?” You smile and gave me a nod.

First I thought that you were alone but then I saw your friend coming toward the table. When she saw us, she being so ‘understanding’ and leave us alone. She moved toward another place. And I can said that she actually ‘give a golden opportunity’ ( Thanks a lot to your friend! ) Of course I did not miss the chance so I chit chat with you.

I came to know your hometown Bahau, Negeri Sembilan, your birthday (3 days after Agong Birthday) your dialect (Hakka) religious (Buddhist) and etc.

Each time I talked with you, I just can’t stop admiring you. You are not just pretty but you do have a pair of beautiful eyes, nice face figure (oval shape) feminine, attractive and friendly! [You are much more prettier than the first person I ever like, Sharon]

After chit-chatting with me for more than half an hour you asked permission to leave because you want to continue with your revision. I watched you go and finished my breakfast. Then I went back to the reading room again.

Chong indirectly knew that I’ve taken my breakfast with you because all the while I haven’t take half an hour for it! And at the same time Shee Keong began with his teasing again.

Night…. When I back to Taman Melawati, Hulu Kelang, Selangor I told my room-mates how I came to know you when they mentioned a Library Supervisor. Of course again nobody trust me cos the moment I stayed with them I have shown to them the true character of me. Being alone, didn’t like to mix around, serious etc.

If I’m not mistaken the person they mentioned must be your friend cos I heard that she is from Bahau too! Beside that they also mentioned about you cos from the descriptions I knew that it is you especially with this remark. “She has a beautiful friend too which is also a supervisor. The friend of her is a little bit darker than typical chinese girls. She seem like an Indian or Malay.”

Well, it is true about you. They then asked me which Library Supervisor I’m talking about. Come to my reply, “Well the one you mentioned just now, the most beautiful one, a bit darker and seem like a Malay or Indian.” One of them by name of Yong enquired, “You mean Mey Fah?” I said yes and wonder how he came to know your name. It’s seem like you have a lot of secret admirer too!

One thing for sure is they are surprised, really surprised when I said that you are my new friend. They even teased me, “HA! HA! Mey Fah is your friend? You thought that I’m small kid and tried to bluff me? Do you know there is quite a number of your college-mates including me like to get to know her and didn’t even succeed? Just to say you?

But a message proof everything. I shown them them the message. Its a duplicate message I have given to you and is written something like this:-

“Dear Miss,

Hope you don’t mind about this. Don’t be shy, be steady, be silent. Miss, maybe we can be friends? To turn me down would make me sad.  To accept me as your friend would me glad. You need not explain or promise…… All you need is just give me a smile Thank you.

P/S My intention is clean and sincere.”

FROM….. THE GUY SITTING BEHIND

When they saw this they began to believe me but not 100% Well, anyway at least I’m proud of myself. Why not? As many guys like to get know you not succeed, but I did it!

4:30PM You came in the reading room 1, you looked  very innocent and just like a young pretty little girl today. ( You wear a light yellow skirt with small red flowers on it. The collar and the sleeves of your shirt is in white colour )

As usual I sat on the same old place, the moment I saw you my heartbeat increased. It’s beat more faster as you walked nearer. When you sat down I nearly stop breathing!

I have this kind of feeling because I decided earlier no matter where I see you, I will give you the note! I can’t stand on missing the opportunity anymore. Proverb said, “When opportunity came knocking on the door you must grab it or else it will pass by and never will be returned” So this is what I going to do!!

When Chong saw you on duty again, he mentioned something about you to Shee Keong. Shee Keong kept his eyes on you and he also agreed that you’re very nice, beautiful and attractive! Chong also let Shee Keong knew that you are the one I tried to befriend this few days!!

And at the same time they seem like knowing of what I thought and began to tease me. I just can’t stop cursing and I swear I won’t let them know any my secret the next time.

Well, they pretty sure that you won’t accept me as your friend because I am serious type, not friendly enough and not talkative. I knew clearly what they mean because I knew myself well.

Anyway I didn’t take them seriously, my idea is that “You should try before you said can’t!” and I replied to their teasing, sound challenging, “Well you just wait for my good news. I will let you know tomorrow.” And out they goes.  ( I turned back and noticed that you are not there anymore)

A few minutes later I saw my friends went in the room again. They wish me good luck and said that they are ready to hear from me the next day. To add more ‘taste’ to their game they even helped me to modify the message so that it sound good. What good friends I have!!

Before they left, they told me that you are just outside of the room. Just to see you I followed them out. I noticed that you are talking with a boy. While keeping my eyes on you I also purposely chit chat with my friends.

After a while I went back to the room again and continue revision. Then all a sudden somebody handed me the attendance book, I looked up and it is you! (I wonder when you came in) I took the book and at the same time I thought of giving you the note but I just don’t have the courage to do so!!

When the last person in my row have signed the attendance book and he returned it to you. You took it and walked out of the room. A moment later I followed from behind and noticed that you’re in room 2. I waited for you to come out but you kept on chit-chat with your friends (the other supervisors)

Back to room 1 and continue revision but there is ‘something’ disturbing my mind. I felt uneasy and can’t concentrate at what I read. All I see was emptiness. I guessed there is something to do with you. After second thought I quickly goes out the room again hopefully I will ‘bump’ in you but to my disappointment you still inside the room.

This time I saw you revision there. I still waiting for you to come out. 5… 10…. 15…. 20…. 25…. minutes passed by….. I loose my patience and back I went in the room 1 again. I wondering why you revision there instead of in this room. So far as I concern all your books and belonging are here in Room 1. It seem that you sensed my plan and you really made me ‘pay’ for this!

Normally you will quickly come back to your seat again once you have passed the attendance book to room 2. (This is what I noticed these few days) But this time it’s almost 6:30PM. With ‘frustration’ and stomach empty, I just left the note on your place and went out for dinner……..

Half way through the staircase, I made an ‘U-Turn’ back to the room again cos I afraid that somebody might seen it and throw it away, then the note may not reach you and I will totally missed the chance of knowing you. Beside that if the person who read it happen to be you I will also miss to see your reaction too! So I decided to stay anyway.

Well I did took back the note and add in a few words “From… The guy sitting behind” then I put it nicely back to your place again and wait patiently for the moment to come.

At last the long waited moment came! You came in the room around 6:35PM. You saw the message, took it and read it! And at the same moment my heart missed a few beats!! When you finished I can feel that you did turn back and looked at my direction (even though I didn’t look at you the time)

All of  a sudden you grabbed the note and quickly walked out of the room without turning back. Did I scared you? And I began to panic! Suddenly the fear began to ‘haunt me’ I damn scared. I thought you are going to report this to the Head Supervisor. I kept hoping and praying that you didn’t do this.

“Well, I have playing with matches and the little spark has turned into fire. And now it is really burning!! I definitely won’t be allowed to use this reading room anymore!” This is the first thing I thought.

I try to keep my head as low as possible. Without turning back, (by hearing) I knew you came in the room again but this time you are not alone! I felt that you are talking with somebody else and then left.  Whether it is real or just an imagination, I didn’t know as I dare not to turn back!!

At the same time I sensed that the other students also kept their eyes on me. Its seem like the whole room (students) are staring at me!! It feel so terrible and uncomfortable. I quickly packed my books and went out of the room…. but lady luck is with me today!

When I opened the door, to my surprise…. I really can’t believe my eyes and myself. I thought I am dreaming but of course it is not. It is is reality and it did happened right in front of my eyes!!

All I saw was you [ with a smiling face like this -> ] I Knew I own you an apology. I said sorry for what I did. You smiled again and said that you didn’t mind. “I can be your friend” was the next words I heard from  you. You introduce yourself and gave me a warm firmly hand shake. (This the moment we became a friend!)

[I'm still in state of 'confusion'. To believe or not to believe. "Is she the one who is talking with me now? Does this really happen?" I tried to find an answer for this. Well, well Stephen you are not dreaming, the most beautiful Library Supervisor is now your friend  and she right in front of you!]

Then you introduced your friend to me as Miss Oh. I told you how I feel when you grabbed the message and walked out of the room. All you do is… well, you just standing there laughing and smiling. The way you smile… oh how sweet and attractive you are!

After chit-chatting for 5 minutes, I said good-bye and I left the building as one of the most happiest person in the world that night. I’m so happy and pleased with myself because….. I came to know you at last!! It can be said that I’m one of the lucky guy too!

The next thing I did was to call Shee Keong from A Block (Administration Block) and told him of that ‘fantastic good news’. Of course he did not trust me, he thought I’m joking but as I continued with my story, he began to believe it. He congratulated me and praise me ‘cos he never expect me to success with this game. He even laughed at what I have done. Well, what a day and another experience for me.

After taking dinner I joined them for movie. During supper, Shee Keong blurted out what I did this evening. The rest of my gangs surprised to hear it too! They too didn’t expect me dare to do this! An achievement for myself yeah?

Saw you again but this time I really didn’t dare to give you the message. This because I have tried it out on other girl and I found that the result is negative!

Actually, before you come in the reading room, I noticed a girl that is quite cute and pretty which I decided to choose her as testing. I just want to proof to myself that I dare to break the ice. Beside that I also want to know whether this method of getting to know girl can be successful or not!

I spotted her sitting a few tables away in front of me. Since she is cute I didn’t miss the chance staring at her. After a few moment she received my signal and knew that somebody is watching her. She began to feel uneasy but anyway she played the ‘game’ with me.

Each time I looked at her, she sure stare back. This carry on for sometime. And at last I’m pretty sure of myself that she’ll ‘accept’ me as her friend. Without wasting anytime I made the first moved! I re-wrote the message  (that I decided to give to you) on another piece of paper.

You know something, while writing I can feel that my heart beat increased and my hand shivering. All of sudden, I don’t know why I began to feel uneasy!

When I finished with the note, I took all my courage to approach her and passed her the note. Then I quickly back to my seat! My heart beat even faster. It seem like jumping out right through my mouth!! More worse, my hands and legs began to shivering and trembling even more.

At the same time I saw her taking the note and read it. I tried to cool myself down but I just can’t stand the situation, I walked out of the room. I feel relax a bit but…. when I went back to the room again the same thing happened! Anyway I managed to keep myself ‘cool’ this time.

When I didn’t see any response from her. I knew I got the wrong interpretation of her body language. She just flirting with me only. It is so embarrassed and I wonder where I should hide myself when I see her again.

A few moment later I saw a boy went in the room and goes to her place. They chit chat for a while and out of the room, she goes with him. “No wonder there is no response from her, she already have a boyfriend! Stephen, Stephen you’re so dump!!” I told myself.

After those first experience, I goes for dinner and this is the time I saw you. I dare not pass you the note and I thought, “I better kept it a side for the next few days. I don’t want to face with two rejections at the same day.”

9:30AM – Saw you outside the reading room flipping through a note pad. I quickly went inside the room and began cracking my brain to write something on a piece of paper. (And this time it is myself instead of Chong) The note contains an information of myself, school etc.

When I finished writing it I kept it on my pocket and walked out of the room. Thought of given it to you right away but you already gone. What a wasted golden opportunity!

12:15PM – Met you again. I didn’t dare to give it to you cos’ fear of rejection. Beside that you are talking with a friend. Once again I ‘missed’ the opportunity.

2:00PM – For this year, this the first time I saw you again. You came in the Reading Room 1 and straight walked to your seat and sat down. After all these months I didn’t ever dream before that I will come to met you again in the same building! You just lost out my sight since I last saw you in August 1983!

As you carried on your revision, I wonder why you sat on the place reserved for the Library Supervisor. As I knew, only Supervisor on duty will take the seat. ( I noticed once a guy being ‘chase’ off when he occupy the seat!) Well, anyway I didn’t pay much attention on this and I carried on with my revision.

Once a while I did looked at you. You know something? The more I looked at you the more beautiful you are! Indirectly it did effect my studies. It seem that I can’t forgive myself if I didn’t stare at you.

5:00PM – You still there. I say something to my close friend, Chong. This what I said to him, “Well, look at the girl sitting beside us at the back. Is she beautiful?” (We just sit behind you, facing the wall, and you faced the main hall)

First he didn’t know who I’m talking about. After a few descriptions and informations, he turned toward your direction and then he gave me a nod!

5:30PM – I saw you gone through the attendance book and got it marked. Only then I knew that you are actually the Library Supervisor! And this really gave me an unexpected surprise!

When you have checked through the book you passed it to me. I took it, wrote my name, school and finally I got it signed. Before I pass the book to somebody else I noticed a girl’s name written on top of the line. ( It is written as Leow Mey Fah and I wonder if it is yours)

Anyway I did memorised it hopefully it is yours! Then I noticed that ‘she’ is a Pre-U student. When I got these ‘information’ I passed the book to the other student. Well, by then my close buddy came up with something else! You know something? He tried to befriend you!! What unexpected move he makes and this really gave me a surprise. Since I knew him, I know that he is a ‘shy’ person, shy than I’m! But now he is a step of me. Can you imagine that? Anyway I’m one hundred percent sure that he dare not to approach you!! And I am right!!

Let me tell you what he is doing… well, first of all he writes his particulars like name, school etc on a piece of paper. (He thought that to know you by this method was really a good idea.) Then he got the paper folded nicely…. and ready to give it to you but he ended it up in the dustbin beside us!! Ha! Ha! I just can’t stop laughing and began to tease him.

[I love this kind of games! I love to be a college student. And most of all I love campus life. You have all the funs all the time without somebody else stopping you. It's freedom.

Even though ours examinations just around the corner we haven't really serious about it. Still fooling around. I remembered once that we (5 of us - Shee Keong, Cheok, Chong, Francis & Me) are nuts!! [(No matter where we goes ie in canteen, movies, bowling, squash, parties, lecture-room etc) we always in a group of five. Our lecture mates named us 5 Lucky Stars.

We got this title from a comedian movies. It just a coincidence that there are 5 person too - in that group! And we get a lot of attention from our friends. Once they mention 5 Lucky Stars everybody knew who we are!!]

I said that we are nuts was because we just can’t miss the good show in town and we really go for it in the thunder storm riding bike! Even though we knew that it will be screened for the next 2 weeks but we just couldn’t wait.

We did bumped into our lecture-mates on the traffic light. They are in the college bus and they all laughed at us just to see us wet in the heavy rain!! The girls said that we are really crazy.

On reaching the cinema we all wet from head to toe. The rain water dripped from our shirt and trouser. It seem that we are just swimming in the pool with our shirt on! Everybody kept their eyes on us but we couldn’t care much. All we care was get the tickets and have a nice sit on the chairs.

When the show start, every patrons have a comfortable seat on their chairs while we started trembling and shivering for the next hour!!”

Actually one of my lecture-mate knew you. That what he said. First I don’t believe him but he seem like knowing a lot about you. And at last I got to believe what he said.

He said you are from Bahau and if he is not mistaken, your surname is “Leow” (He even spelled it out for me!) This made me pretty sure that I struck right on the spot!! What I actually hope turned out to be truth. I guessed your name correctly!

When we goes for dinner at TBR (Taman Bunga Raya) I tried my best to persuade him to introduce you to me but guessed what? He gave me so many reasons! He said that he knew you not long lah, didn’t close to you lah, communicate with you just for a few times lah, it’s won’t nicelah and etc. This really made me frustrated. As long as I knew, he seem like didn’t interested in introducing you to me. So selfish! “So what? It’s wouldn’t end of the world if I didn’t know you.” I told myself.

Well anyway, deep in my heart I have a plan. This made me more eagerly to get to know you!! (After dinner, I didn’t see you in the reading room anymore. It was around 7:30PM)

Well, Chong still didn’t give up his idea, he cracked his brain to think of what to write on the paper so that he can give it to you the next time. But once again he ran out of ideas and down it goes to the dustbin for the second time!! I teased him again, “If you don’t know how to write, you better keep it a side. Leave it for me to try the next day.” Ha! Ha! I laughed. Sound like challenging him and he got frustrated.